Resolutions

Happy 2008! With a new year beginning, of course everyone has resolutions that they want to accomplish in 2008. I am no exception. There are many things that I want to do, overcome and accomplish this year.

First, I resolve to write more blogs. I started this to help myself work out the many thoughts in my head. However, several people have complimented me on my sites and have wondered when the next installment will come. It has also come to my attention that while blogging, I am also supporting our troops, giving them a little taste from back home! (We love you and miss you, Ryan. We can't wait for you to come home safely. Thanks for all that you do. )
Plus, if I am ever going to make this into a book, and then of course a movie of my life, I really need to get on the ball with my writing. So more blogs to come, be on the look out.

Secondly, I resolve to take this damn weight off my body!!!!! I started working on this before the holidays, after seeing those disgusting pictures of myself at my brother's wedding. However, spending a week in Louisiana with all of Dad's great food, Aunt Marion's(and Penny's) potato salad, along with the luscious crawfish, I was thrown off of the diet wagon. Actually, it was more like being shot off like a canon, but you get the idea. I want to be able to start dancing and acting again. But I can't do that at this weight. After my break up and dealing with depression, food became a comfort. It made me happy when nothing else did. I am learning how to enjoy food again, but food that is good for me. Ultimately, eating healthy will make me happy in the long run. I realize that now, I am only eating crap to satisfy my immediate gratification and that's never good.

I also resolve to keep in better contact with my family and friends. Work seems to take up all my time. Where does that really get you? I love my job, but my loved ones will not always be around and I don't want to wake up and regret not spending time with them because I was working. My biggest regret would be letting those I love leave this planet, without them knowing how much they mean to me because I was just "too busy."

#4 - I resolve to have a real relationship again. I spent the last four years of my life loving a man who can not return those feelings. I want to be loved, really loved. I want my heart to flutter, bells to ring, romance to blossom. I want to get back on the horse. I think it's time and I deserve it. Leland Chapman look out!

I resolve to stop putting myself down. This has been a very difficult problem for me because I haven't felt worthy enough. I want to stop the self - loathing. It's not worth it and life too short.

I am sure there is so much more that I should resolve for 2008. But this is a start and I can always add to the list. The thing about resolutions is that it shouldn't be something done, just at the beginning of a new year. Anyone can make changes in their life at any time. Hopefully, this is just a start of many positive things to come.